Tuesday, October 30, 2012

On The Drive There.

Our house hunt is frustrating.
I didn't expect to just find one the first week or anything. I especially didn't expect to be in escrow or anything crazy like that yet. But, the realization that we may NEVER find a house at this price is sinking in.

Let me explain. No, it's too much.
Let me sum up.

It's a low price range, so there are only three kinds of houses at this range....one's that need help, "TLC", fixer uppers...which our loan prohibits,  ones that are too far away for our current life, and good deals.

Good deals are swooped up in a heartbeat,often with cash in hand, leaving no chance for us.
For example, I found one on line in the MLS to look at. It had everything we needed from what we could tell from the description and photos. It was a little bit far away but we were willing to look at it, because it had everything we needed, we called our agent, we set a time to go see it that very day....and it was sold as we drove out to it. We received a text from our real estate agent saying "never mind". A verbal agreement was made while the owner was flying to go see a Packards game...and she was going to sign the papers in the airport. Ouch.

Our best bet is to find someone that wants to sell their property BEFORE they place it on sale. But again, it has to be in good shape and "cheap".

Here's where faith comes in, and I am struggling with it.
On the one hand, if God want's us to stay here, then this will happen, and it will be in His timing, and it will be worth the wait and it will be a blessing.

On the same hand but the other side we did indeed pray that if we aren't going to stay here long, if it isn't His plan for us to stay, that we do not find a house, because we don't want to be trapped with a house if we have to move away...just like before. It was painful. It was terrible.We survived, but we are wiser now.
But that side of that hand is frustrating.

I'd rather just know His will and plan in that direction instead of it being a guessing game.
Isn't that true of every situation?
We would rather just know...but that leaves no room for trust and faith.

I will stand on the promise that "He knows the plans for me, plans to prosper me, plans to give me a future and a hope." Jeremiah 39:11

Here's to hope.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Magnificent Monday

Long ago, when I first started homeschooling my girls through a Christian organization, I was given a required reading assignment. It was a little book about blessings. Not one about how to receive them, but how to give them instead. It spoke of speaking out a blessing as family members leave the home for the day and other such things. I do not recall the name or author of the book, but it's concepts have stuck with me.

I started this practice years ago, and while I am by no means perfect, and I don't always remember, and I am not always in a good mood to say blessings, I have taken note that it makes a difference. I have blessed my daughter on the way to work with specifics,"May you have a good day at work and get a perfect sale". And she did. Not because I am magically, but because our God loves. But even when things don't get answered to blatantly it still can change the attitude, or environment of those you send out with a blessing. Words of encouragement can do that.

I noticed recently while traveling that many people do not do this. Not even "Have a good day honey". It's so simple, it such a simple, easy, and quick way to show love. So I started saying it to those I was with,"Have a great day at school", "Have a peaceful day at work, may your efforts be noticed". At first they looked at me kinda funny, but then they started saying thank you.

Speak in love and with positive attributes for the person. Speak of what would make a "good day". Sometimes I speak of who they can be, even if they are scared or don't believe in themselves.
Try it. Even if it's hard, even for a difficult person.Keep at it. It will make a difference, not only in them, but in you.

May you be blessed with a productive day, health, and a simple yet happy moment today!

Sunday, October 28, 2012


So the Giants swept the World Series.
That, my friends, seems really impressive. But more importantly it made a lot of people in this general area really, really happy.

I hope they all stay in good moods all week long. :)

Thursday, October 25, 2012

An Invitation to Tea, and Life

I just read this article over at Storyline.
It's truly amazing, and beautiful.
What an amazing couple, what an amazing man....
Instead of turning a blind eye to the issue, or moving away from it all together...he did something so simple, so peaceful, and changed lives instead.

He invited them over.
He listened to them.
He reminded them that someone cares, and life is worth living.

We can all do that, for anyone.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Seeking Fruit

But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!
Galatians 5:21-24

Seems like a good list to me.
Who wouldn't want these things in their life? Who wouldn't want to be surrounded by peace instead of chaos, hate instead of love, despair instead of joy?

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13

 Sometimes that list looks overwhelming in the ,"I am trying to get it right" category. But God doesn't ask for perfection. Jesus was perfect and paid the ultimate price because we are not. It's that simple. Sometimes hard to believe, but always true. With the help of the Holy Spirit I can be, live, and show others those attributes on that list.

Even if I start small, and focus on one thing, at least I am moving in the right direction.


Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Thankful Tuesday

That the storm yesterday didn't destroy anything we needed.
For people holding us up in prayer.
For grace and mercy, boy did I need it last week (and the week before, and well, the week before that).

Thankful for doing life together with people that love God passionately.
For people in my life that get me. And for the God who created me, quirks and all.
For those around me with amazing talents and abilities, who are willing to share and teach me as well.

Thankful for fall, cool air, rain for the plants and wells.
For colorful leaves, and harvests.
Soup, warm bread, and friends to share it with.

For miracles.

What are you thankful for?

Monday, October 22, 2012


While the wind blew, and the rain came down....(followed by hail and apparently a tornado touched down somewhere near here, which frankly is unheard of. This is the foothills to some major mountains, it's just odd to think that could happen here)  I was very productive. Not pictured is dinner from scratch too.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Again with the HFCS

Wonder why your diet doesn't work?
Wonder why you , or your kids, are always hungry?
Check this out!
I've said it before, I've backed it up, and I will say it again.
High Fructose Corn Syrup really is poison for your body.
It triggers hunger! It blocks the signal that you have had enough.
Well , I have had enough!

Please, do your self a favor. Check this information out. Now the above site is kinda in your face, but she points it all out straight up. She does have some source links. The corn industry will tell you it's safe...sure, it's "safe"...but do you want your brain faked out and thinking you need to eat more??

Didn't think so.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Scary Soy

I have known for a long time that soy isn't actually that good for you. It can mess with your thyroid and it is one of the top GMO foods out there.

Found this.
 Read up, soy is in a lot commercially prepared foods in one form or another.
It has a link to more information. There is a list of 170 reasons why to NOT eat soy. That's a lot.

Friday, October 19, 2012

It's A Process

We have sorta been pre-approved for a home loan.

I say this with uncertainty in my voice, and a fuzzy feeling in my head...one because I am suddenly having a heck of a time with seasonal allergies, a cold apparently,but also because I didn't expect this to happen for another couple of years.

We have a sorted past.

One filled with pain and shame. Sorta.
I don't feel like telling it all right now, it is truly an epic tale, perhaps in November.

ALl I have to say is this.
It will take a miracle.

The amount we are approved for isn't much.
There are limitations, as in, it can't have any "issues".

This combination leads to near impossibility (all things are possible through Christ, right?)
and competition because this level of home goes quickly.

All I know is this...IF we can find a house, we can cut our housing expenses nearly in half. NEARLY HALF.
That means we could pay off our student loans, finally.
AND it also means we could breathe a little bit easier each month. And that sounds nice.

Pray for us.
We will need it.
Thank you.

Here's to expecting great things....

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Knocked To My Knees

I was whining to God about something.
Not just today, but ALL WEEK LONG.

I have been a bit of a brat I might say.
We all have those (un)glorious moments, right?
I am so very thankful for all I have, but I got to looking at what others have, and well, tantrum.
It was dumb really.

Thankfully my heavenly Father is so very kind, and gentle.
He would send me reminders of His love, word of wisdom from others, or from the blogs I read, or devotional time.
I am struggling feeling like the unwanted step kid.

I head know I am loved, that I am adopted into His wonderful family, but my heart feels like I am tolerated, not embraced, and that I don't quite make it. I am not quite okay.

Such a dangerous place to be.
The enemy isn't called the king of lies for nothing. He slithers into my head, wags his tongue at my ear...and feeds me lies based on my past pain and experiences.
And sometimes I swallow them down.
Sometimes I recognize it for what it is, AND SPIT IT OUT.
I was having a hard time spitting this week, and much to easy of a time swallowing.

Then I read this.

Worth the read.

I know it slapped me back to reality, and I don't mean in a "it could be worse, you could have this happen" kind of way. It's this beautiful man's attitude regarding God.

I repent of feeling unloved, and I am praising Him for all He is, and ever shall be.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

World Gone Mad

I read this today on one of the blogs I frequent. The Common Room.

I am seriously shaking my head as well...
Think for a moment what this would mean...if you didn't want something useful anymore, you couldn't sell it, or even donate it to say, a thrift store to sell. Unless the seller has specific permission to re-sell that item from the manufacturer or copyright holder.....

Excuse me?

I see landfills of useable items filling up valuable land.I see many people struggling because they can not afford new items.

Someone wants their almighty dollar, and it's blinding them to common sense and logic.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Avoiding Holiday Weight Gain

The temperatures have finally dropped! I am so happy. I love all seasons, but we were really ready for the cool weather to come back. I actually had the opportunity to wear my Uggs last night. It was like a hug from a long lost friend.

Fall also means the start of the gain weight season, oops, I mean the holiday season.

Things I am going to do to avoid gaining weight, and actually lose weight this year:

1. Stay on my nutritional products. They help curb all those cravings and keep me satisfied.
2. Return to doing the 30 Day Shred workout. I say return because I didn't have it in San Diego, and now I hurt my back, so I have to wait for that to settle down. I will start with walking on the treadmill asap.
3.Not celebrate the SEASON...but try , very hard, to celebrate the DAY. For some reason in our minds it becomes a food free for all starting soon and not ending until January 2nd. I say a weekly seasonal treat, and then the actual holiday itself is enough. That way you can enjoy the special foods of the season, without an extra 5-20 pounds when you are done. I need to be super careful about sugary treats because they set off a sugar addiction, that is no fun and makes me feel tired. Sugar is also in inflammatory in your system, and inflammation is the cause of so many terrible things. Consider that while you ponder your options. There are many fabulous tasting seasonal foods that are good for you, sometimes it is just the preparation that makes it dangerous (sweet potato/yam sugar bomb for example).
4. Get support. A spouse, a friend, a coach. Grab someone and tell them, "I need help to stay on track". Tell them a phrase to use that will help you, and what would not make you so upset that you rebel against them. The goal is to stay friends, but help each other. For me this includes prayer. Nothing is as powerful.
5. Remember the goal. You might have a photo of you at goal weight on the fridge, or the mirror or near the scale. I have a dream board made like a collage from magazines. It is full of healthy food options, inspirational quotes and a silluette that makes sense for my body. I don't have an image of a 5'11", size 0 model. That's not going to happen, which leads me to number...
6. Be realistic, optimistic, and love yourself. I was given the genetics I was given. I haven't taken the best care of those genes, so I will improve upon that. I won't, however, beat myself up for not looking the way society thinks all women should look. Even most models will complain about something on themselves, and everything gets airbrushed and fixed. This is a personal journey, don't compare yourself.  Goals are good but if you put an unrealistic time limit or number on the scale, it will only lead to trouble for yourself.  I could have been a lot farther down the scale, but I made choices that took me off that path. I can face that. My body has now had time to adjust to being over 50 pounds lighter and I can look forward to finishing, I still have a long way to go. Perhaps, because I did it this way and not straight through, I will be mentally ready for the outcome. I have never been that small as an adult. I need to be ready for it. Perhaps by taking this break my skin has had more time to adjust as well. We know what skin looks like after it has been stretched out and then released....not the prettiest thing to look at. Perhaps I needed to look at my coping mechanisms and fix a few things...which I have been working on. Weight returns because the eating patterns remain. There is still work to be done as each layer is removed. I am able to face that now.

I am ready to face the holidays and not gain weight!
Are you?

Monday, October 1, 2012


My husband hit his goal weight.
Actually, he is under his goal weight.


He still freaks out when he sees his reflection or shadow.
This trim guy thing is odd for him.

Now to buff up! Woo!

Thankfully the nutritional products we have  are easy to switch how we use them to maintain his weight and build some serious muscles. Not like all scary pumped up or anything...just healthy.

This has been a great year and journey towards healthier lives.