Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Thankful Tuesday

So very thankful...

Safe deliveries of 3 babies this week.
My brother is coming down on Saturday.
I fly home Monday.
My dad is doing really , really well.
Tried on jeans one size smaller, and they zipped up! Isagenix!


What are you thankful for?

Monday, February 27, 2012


 My time down in southern California has been bitter sweet. Even though I am so very thankful I could help out, and really make a difference, and even though I am having precious time with my very close friends, and was able to witness the birth of super snuggly Charlotte...I am super excited to say that I am going home in a week. A week from now I will be in my husband's arms, or at least sitting next to him in the car, holding his hand. I will hug my kids, I will sleep in my own bed with my own pillow, and also very important, I will have access to my full wardrobe again! I will sort through things that are now too big, and rejoice in things that finally fit! I will have a wider assortment of clothing rather than a limited suitcase worth. I was not prepared for the weird weather, but did my best. One pair of shoes died while I was here, and I will get rid of several pairs of TOO LARGE pants that are baggy and driving me crazy.

I know I have a lot of sorting waiting for me, but that's totally okay. I will relish my last moments here, and really appreciate being home in a week.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Another Bundle

So very thankful for the safe arrival of another special baby.
Thank you Bethany and David for sharing the experience with me.


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Thankful Tuesday

So very thankful this little guy made it into the world safely yesterday.
This is my great nephew.
So very thankful.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Thankful Thursdays!

Amidst the storms...
I am thankful...

1. Memory foam.
2. Babies, one 4month old, 2 pending
3. Worship
4. Moments of pure clarity
5. Southern California winter weather
6. Max. (the dog)
7. Isagenix Isadelights chocolates
8. Hope.
9. Good news
10. Change.

Am I really thankful for change? Well, yes. I am not comfortable with it, I am sad about some of it, but I know God has my back. I have to fight off the spirits of bitterness, anger, jealousy, and whatever spirit has me feeling like I was thrown under a bus, or kicked in the teeth while I was already on the ground...but I will survive that. It is just a feeling afterall, it isn't necessarily the truth. I can pray for the truth to be revealed. Clarity is key. Why waste time and energy and crazy emotions on anything that isn't the truth? And if it is the truth then there is a reason, and therefore you don't have to do any of that anyway...

just thinking out loud here.
God is good, all the time....even when we can't see it, even when things are tough, or weird, or unknown.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Love, Love, Love

I miss him terribly.
I love him deeply.

Happy Valentines Day my love.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Oncology Update

I wrote this a few days ago on the health/help website we are using to let all my dad's friends and family and such know what's going on. It's Lotsa Helping Hands. It has an area where we can ask people to help, like with a ride or an errand, or a meal. It's really cool. This is my entry from last week...

Today we met with Doctor Ku in the Oncology department. She is very knowledgeable in these particular kinds of situations and cancers and we are happy to be under her care.

So here's what we know.
HE DOES NOT HAVE MULTIPLE MYELOMA AT THIS TIME. This is incredibly good news. We celebrated with Chinese food for dinner.
He will only need radiation and NO CHEMOTHERAPY, WHOOP WHOOP!
The tumor was diagnosed as a Solitary plasmacytomas, which was removed and the radiation will be focused just on the area to make sure all the cells are irradicated. He is now officially diagnosed with MGUS (Monocolonal Gammopathy of Unknown Significance), which is Myeloma related, but not nearly as serious.
He does not have the full indicators within the parameters that would indicate true Multiple Myeloma or even Smouldering Myeloma.

What that means...

The basics: his plasma cells do have an imbalance, the tumor was a collection of those cell and was indeed malignant, however, he may never have an incidence of this nature again. Since MGUS can be a precursor to Myeloma, he will be closely monitored for changes in blood, plasma, calcium, and other areas. 40% of people diagnosed with MGUS never develop Multiple Myeloma.

There is a more technical explanation below for those interested and also a website however, not everything on the internet regarding MGUS is accurate to Richard's situation. He's just unique.:)

It is still unknown how long his radiation treatments will take. We meet with that department next week.

We are all relieved by his immediate prognosis. He continues to improve everyday, however, his stamina still isn't what it used to be. Continued prayer for the healing of the surgical sites is appreciated.

These are taken directly from here: ledGuide/multiple-myeloma-what-is-multiple-myeloma
From the American Cancer Society website,

Monoclonal gammopathy of undetermined significance

In monoclonal gammopathy of undetermined significance (MGUS), abnormal plasma cells produce excess amounts of a monoclonal antibody protein. However, these plasma cells do not form an actual tumor or mass and do not cause any of the other problems seen in multiple myeloma. MGUS usually does not affect a person's health. In particular, it doesn't cause weak bones, high calcium levels, kidney problems, or low blood counts. It is most often found because a routine blood test finds a high level of protein in the blood and further testing shows the protein is a monoclonal immunoglobulin. In MGUS, the number of plasma cells may be increased, but they still make up less than 10% of the cells in the bone marrow.

Over time, many people with MGUS eventually develop multiple myeloma, lymphoma, or a disease called amyloidosis. The rate of this happening is about 1% per year. The risk of this happening is higher in people whose protein levels are particularly high. Patients with MGUS don't need treatment, but they are watched closely to see if they get a disease that does need to be treated, such as multiple myeloma.

Recently, scientists have studied the genes of the plasma cells in patients with MGUS. They found that the genetic make-up of these plasma cells resembles myeloma plasma cells more than it resembles normal plasma cells. This suggests that these cells are truly malignant, not just slow growing. Because, in general, people with MGUS are elderly, they may not live long enough for it to transform into myeloma.

Solitary plasmacytomas

This is another type of abnormal plasma cell growth. Rather than many tumors in different locations as in multiple myeloma, there is only one tumor, hence the name solitary plasmacytomas.

Most often, a solitary plasmacytoma develops in a bone, where it may be called an isolated plasmacytoma of bone. When a plasmacytoma starts in other tissues (such as the lungs or the lining of the sinuses, throat, or other organs), it is called an extramedullary plasmacytoma. Solitary plasmacytomas are most often treated with radiation therapy. Sometimes surgery may be used for a single extramedullary plasmacytoma. As long as no other plasmacytomas are found later on, the patient's outlook is usually excellent. However, since many people with a solitary plasmacytoma will develop multiple myeloma, these people are watched closely for signs of this disease.

Last Medical Review: 08/04/2011
Last Revised: 01/17/2012

Friday, February 10, 2012

Photo Friday

Alyssa, Jenelle, my Dad, and Leesah Sweetie, (0ne of my nieces).

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Blankity Blank

I am not cussing.
My mind is blank.

I am sad. I am happy. I have hope, but I am devastated. I feel joyous that things are getting better, but bothered that other things are falling apart.

I am emotionally nauseated.
I am fighting the urge to eat my way through it.
To push down what I actually feel.

How many of you do that? Pushing down the truth of your feelings because we are told to control them, or not show them?

I am not a rock. I am a strong person however, that sees the good that can happen. God is amazing and has a plan. His plan is the best plan.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Well, Well, Well.....

Things change fast.
Dad suddenly was restless and so much better, they sent him home. "Home" being my sister's house. This is good news. We start oncology visits tomorrow.

I praise God for his healing thus far. I see miracles from the original diagnosis and complicated surgery to what came to be and what is now known of his condition. Where some family members might say "isn't that lucky", I would say "That is God".

I miss my own little family terribly.

I've missed my son's basketball games, Grand Prix, seeing him after he nailed an audition and got a part. I am not there to cook for my family,help Aaron with his work or help Spencer with his schoolwork. I am sad, but I know it is necessary. I have great respect for military families kissing their loved ones goodbye for months, or even a year at a time.

I will make it through this. When I go home things will be different too. I no longer have the job I used to. I will make up the difference with my Isagenix, and Aaron and I will figure out together what to do next. God has our future, we just need to turn to Him and know we will be okay.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Photo Friday

My Kids
Parents celebrating in style.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


As of today my parents have been married fifty-four years. Through tragedy and sorrow and lots of wonderful happy and joyful times. Four kids, many, many moves, career changes, and illnesses, and they still hold hands and say I Love You.

I know how rare they are, and how lucky I am.
God is at the center of their relationship, right where He belongs.

Are they perfect? No.
Has it always been perfect? No.
But it has always been a dedication and faithfulness.
They said their vows with full intention of keeping them, and they did.

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad.

I am glad to be celebrating with you with moving Dad out of the hospital, and into a fabulous recovery facility for occupational and physical therapy to learn how to live with his new back.

Well, that and home made lemon meringue pie...yum.