Monday, February 28, 2011

Excuse Me?

"This is Sally* from Hangers, I received a referral from Dr. Surgeon* for your husband"

"Yes, we are a prosthetics company here in town"


my mind started racing, did they call the wrong person? Is there something Dr. Surgeon isn't telling us?

"It was just a ruptured Achilles"

"Yes, we do orthopedics too"


Seriously, she needed to start the conversation with that information, that can really startle a person.

*Names changed for privacy.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Snow Thanks

The snow fell hard and fast, and was gone soon after, but not before we made a couple little snowmen. As this one melted it took time to give thanks for it's life...

Friday, February 25, 2011

One, Two, Three, Four, Let's Count Miracles, and Then Some More.

It has been a crazy week and a half.

And instead of panic, I prayed.
Instead of fear, I handed it over to God, even if I had to do it again and again.
Instead of worry, I had peace that everything, somehow, was going to work out.

I have watched the hand of God moving this week, over and over.
We have received those miracles I was expecting. We aren't perfectly okay yet, there are still things that have to be paid for, and figured out, but God is good, and I have no reason to doubt that EVERYTHING will work out, in His timing, for our good.

Like 49 cent rubberbands, He cares about the little stuff, along with the big.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

A Moment.

I have been writing, and thinking, and even dreaming, of how quickly one's life can be altered. This is a bump in our road, and maybe it will give us some down time to follow God's lead to a new road, but really, it's minor compared to how drastically other people's lives change.

But I had a glimpse two days ago.

Laying around all day and all night can do funny things to a body. Blood isn't circulating right, things ache, nothing is comfortable. Aaron has been recovering well all things considered. Yesterday I had to go into work, and I found a couple "husband sitters" to hang out here at the house, just in case. This way they could get him what he needed and be here in case of emergency. I walked my friend to the door and said good bye and as I turned back to the living room Aaron was standing up from his recliner. I asked if he was okay, he responded yes, but he wasn't.

Everything that happened over the next several minutes was both super fast and in slow motion at the same time. It was terrifying to watch, and know I was too far away to do anything about it.

He started to teeter, and without the crutches in place, and with only one foot to stand one, he started going down. He hopped and as I ran across the now vast space between us I lost view of him behind the wall. That wall of separation was agony. I threw what was in my hand as I turned the corner hearing him crashing into the treadmill. He caught himself mid spin and kept saying ,"I'm okay, I'm okay". I think he was trying to convince himself as much as me. I grabbed the fallen crutches, and checked his leg for injury or damage to the bandaging, then I looked at his face.
"Are you going to pass out?"
"Yes, I think I am"

I kept hold of him, grabbed an ottoman from behind me as he slumped forward. I had to yell over and over "Sit down", but he wasn't responding. i pushed the backs of his knees so he would sit. His head rolled forward, I tried to hold him up and reclined back a little, but he said, not to lean on him, and then things changed again. His breathing became uneven, and gargled, his beautiful big musician hands curled up into claws and then his wrists curled up as well. Then the tremors started. My husband was having a seizure while I held him from falling the rest of the way to the floor. I was helpless to do anything but wait. I said his name over and over with no response, and then a moan...and then, finally, after whet seemed like hours but was probably 30 seconds, he said "yeah?"

"Are you with me?"
"Are you sure, you weren't for a couple minutes"
"Yeah,I think I am okay"

I don't ever want him to not be with me again. That's enough of that.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


Yesterday was my 500th post.

Well how about that?

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A HUGE Heaping Helping Of Gratitude

Todays thankful list is full of God's mercy and grace, and miracles.
1. Dr. Williams, Orthopedic Surgeon extrodinaire, was on call when Aaron's Achilles ruptured.
2. Our local hospital is non-profit.
3. Financial miracles, we are not out of the woods, but good golly God is so good and shows such love and mercy to His kids.
4. People with meals, and equipment...and recliners, to help us during recovery.
5. Peace. Peace that passes understanding.
6. Amazing acceptance of a plan of action for my student loan. This is a really big deal.
7. That the snow waited until after we were home from surgery!
8. Sunsets, fresh air, moments of calm amidst life storms.
9. Text messaging, social networking, and e-mail, to update a long listof people of what's going on.
10. A network of friends and family, that really show love and concern when something sudden, weird, or tragic happens. Thank you.

May your day be full of blessings.
Tell me, what are you thankful for.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Little Mouth, Big AHA!

While waiting for Aaron's surgery to be over I sat in a small waiting area with several people all from one family waiting for the matriarch's surgery to be started. It was apparently a very serious surgery, perhaps something to do with the heart. During our wait some came and went and a young member came to wait as well. She was probably 3. She spoke very well, but was petite, and various aunties and uncles commented on how much she was talking now.

It was non-stop chatter.

They joked about finding the off switch, or the battery compartment.

She was in fact delightful, and lightened the mood in the room. At one point she started asking me questions:
What's your name?
What are you doing?
Why are you still here? (the Dr. had spoken to me).
Where's your baby?

And then the grand daddy question that caught me off guard, kicked me in the pants, woke me up, had Angels singing in a glorious "AHA!" moment.

She sweetly asked, "What's a miracle?"

And I looked into her eyes and said, "When something truly amazing happens"

I paused before I said it. i wasn't sure how this large family would respond to me answering such a question to a small child.

What i truly believe and thought of a few minutes later is this:
A miracle is when something really amazing happens by the hand of God.

I am expecting miracles.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

It's *hic* Not *hic * So * hic* Bad

We went from a friendly game of family basketball to surgery in a split second on the court. We are home, and Aaron is resting with his casted foot elevated. The surgeon said the Achilles tendon looked like spaghetti, but he was able to repair everything. Now starts the process of healing.

There's a slight problem. The pain medicine is causing hiccups. Thankfully not 24/7, but still, laying in bed last night trying to fall asleep was, well, challenging.

This is not what I expected to be doing this week, yesterday, this weekend. We are supposed to be at a marriage retreat right now. Aaron and I were both supposed to help lead the music. Tonight Aaron was supposed to lead worship next Sunday. Doc says no.

As i walked the isles of Target Wednesday waiting for his pain meds I kept being bombarded by the sheer monetary issues at hand. No insurance, no sick days, no paid vacation days. If we don't work, we don't get paid. Period. I would shake it off and remember, God will supply for my need according to His riches. We will be covered, we will be okay. As I looked at cool pens I noticed a bag of rubber bands hanging nearby. 49 cents. we never seem to have any around the house, so on a seeming whim I removed them from their perch and added them to my small armload of purchases.

God is good.

The very next morning while trying to get my husband showered and ready for his surgical consult and x-rays i needed those rubber bands to secure a plastic bag over his injured and wrapped leg. Something so small was taken care of. If He cares about the little stuff, then surely the big stuff will be taken care of as well.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

And There Was A Pop.

Spencer plays basketball in a kids legue here in town.
We as a family are trying to be more physical, and also help Spencer with his skills.

So we were all playing a game of hoops in our towns rec center gym....

and I watched as my husband's face contorted, and I was praying before he hit the ground with a ruptured achilles tendon.

This changes a few things.

In this moment, I have no control.
Not that I ever had any, control is an illusion.
Right now I have handed it over to God, the healing, the money, our income, everything.

When you are on the right road, the attacks will be strong.
My God is bigger than any foe.
No weapon formed against me will prosper.

My God is an awesome God.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Thankful Tuesday!

Anyday can be full of gratitude.

Today my heart is full of gratitude for:
1. Ravioli. Chicken and asiago cheese, easy dinner tonight, thank you very much.
2. New babies, and their safe deliveries.
3. The possibility of snow. Crazy for some of you to be thankful for, but I am just the same.
4. Cross country trips to Arkansas. (And hopefully NO snow then)
5. (Aaron's)Grandma Ruby turning 100!
6. New adventures with deep impact.
7. That the veil was torn.
8. Good gigs, with good turn outs, hopefully leading to more good gigs.
9. Talent agents trying to get Aaron's number.
10. The power of prayer, unity and faith.

What are you thankful for today?

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Good Week For The T

Someone won 2nd place for speed in his division during AWANA Grand Prix on Saturday.

He has new glasses  as well.

He also had a sleep over at his best friends house.

AND he was able to go see a pro basketball game, Kings vs The Jazz.

It's been a good week. :)

He also lost another tooth.
Seriously, he barely has any left!
Thankfully the new ones are all coming back in quickly so his smile will be full again soon.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Thankful Ten Tuesday

Okay, here a a thankful list for the week, as well as an update to our lives.

Ten Things I am thankful for, no particular order:
1. AWANA Grand Prix.  Spencer received 2nd place for speed.
2. Bananagrams, and friends who need a little break from the rest of life.
3. Hansens Vanilla Cola, no caffeine, no preservative, no HFCS, no artificial sweeteners, which means, I can drink it, woohoo! And it's yummy.
4. Rat poison. (shudder)
5. No signs of rats in the interior of the house....(just noises in the walls, and a sighting in the garage/office) (double shudder)
6. Fruit of the Spirit. I have the Holy Spirit, therefore I have access to all the fruit, including patience, kindness and self control.
7. More gigs and work for Aaron , can I get an AMEN?!
8. Band aids...especially when they hold your favorite, but broken, bra together until you can afford to replace it (sorry if there are any men reading).
9. People offering free tickets to see the Kings play against the Jazz. Aaron and Spencer are super happy, and I am super thankful for the kindness.
10. New glasses for Spencer! We pick them up today. Hurray!

What are you thankful for?

Monday, February 7, 2011

Not That You Didn't Know Already

We all know fast food is bad for us. We all know trans fats are bad as well.
Here are some more specific reasons why:

It's good information to read and remind ourselves of why healthy eating is the better way.

My son was appalled that the makers of snack cakes and what not would use vegetable shortening instead of real butter. I love that kid.


Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Thankful Tuesday

I am so deeply thankful for:
This man. With all of my heart.